SECOND POST..

Kitty..
JAX...not happy about his picture being taken!
Our beautiful house!

OUR FIRST YEAR!

The Night: On our way to dinner, and through the woods, to the best pasta place we go! Ha ha...and my new bed spread from bed bath and beyond, it's hot!

Well it's been the year of a life time! It was our one year anniversary yesterday. Probably my favorite highlights of the year have been getting a new house, and becoming parents......

OF A KITTEN PEOPLE! HA!
I so love my wonderful husband. He brings so much joy into my life!~

We SIGNED

SO the house is ours!!!

We are SO excited. This process has been slightly full of anxiety and it has been down right exausting at times. The wonderful thing is our base mortage payment will only be $60 more then what we are paying. We will not be moving in till next week though because we are going to Idaho this weekend. YEA!!!

PLEASE anyone feel free to come stay with us. We have plenty of room!! I am serious don't hestitate to ask..PLEASE!!
Or if anyone wants to help us move that would be great!! ha ha.............

Here is the front....

I took this picture last night with my camera phone. My husband and I were not able to get into the house...but we just wanted to see it one last time before we sign our life away today!! Isn't it sooo cute!

SOOoooo..

We finally have a closing date! Yea..and that would be tommorrow........
February 11 at 4:00. We are so excited. We are putting our savings and dreams into this house, so I hope all goes smooth!!

UpDate on the House...BLAHHHHH

Ok so FINALLY this week we SHOULD be closing..........HOPEFULLY..
Has anyone bought a house?
It's all about waiting...ANNOYING!!
I feel very blessed to begin with because we are getting an amazing house for the price. The sellers are a non profit organization called CDC. They purchase homes that belong to HUD and fix them up and put all new stuff in them. THis house we are buying is only 6 years old,but they put new paint carpet and all new engery efficient appliances in it. So, it's totally move in ready. It is seriously a beautiful house. Two car garage, vaulted ceilings, 4 bedroom, 3 full bath. It's worth 177,000 and we are getting it for 153,000. The rest is set in an equity note that we will get if we live in the house for at least a year. That is 24,000 we just get for living in OUR house! I am so excited! It really is such a beatiful home for the price. The reason we got it because the program wanted to give it to a teacher, policeman, etc..public servant..ha ha. We got first dibs before the rest of the public. I will post pictures as soon as we sign the papers. It is ALOT of house..so seriously if anyone EVER needs a place to stay I can provide you a room and a bathroom..:-)
I will keep everyone updated this week...

Where are all the girls??

SO this school year has been HARD. I have a extra small class this year..seven boys. I have no girls in my class. What a difference that makes! This is my sixth year teaching and I have always had cute girls in my class that write me little notes and come in and give me hugs. It's not like that this year at all. These boys are SO naughty. The feeling in my classroom is so negative. They are all black little clouds it seems like. I go in all chipper and cheery and happy and I get nothing back but bad attitude and negativity. It's been so challenging to teach these boys that are so detached from most people and certainly not attached to me in the slightest. I guess this is a vent session, but I don't feel any love when I am at school. I miss having girls in my class. It makes a HUGE difference. Also these boys are all hooked on violent video games, and I seriously thing this affect their well being. Please all you parents out there make sure you cool it with the video games and the violence is not good for your children. Believe me I know, and it truely does affect them in a negative way.
ANYWAY..the house thing is trucking along...........it's now just waiting on the puzzle peices to fit.
I will keep you all updated!!

AH...and offer has been made

So we put an offer in on a house and it was accepted. NOW the fun part begins of getting all our ducks in row...HOLY time consuming. This buyin a house business is not fun..I PROMISE you that. Every night seems to get sucked up with meeting with a realtor signing papers, getting papers together, reading papers.

If all goes as planned we will be living in a beautiful house sooner then later. I can't get to excited because there are still detail to be worked out, BUT...I will post pictures of the beautiful house..AFTER we sign the papers..ha ha!!

House Hunting.....

So like I mentioned two or three posts ago my husband and I were moving into a house. We are renting it. The house has been great. So...we decided to buy a house! We were going to think about that in two years, BUT we decided that now would be a good time for us to buy. Everything just kind of fell into place, and we got out pre-approval, and then we got a realtor, and we have been looking at houses. It all kind of just snow balled! We are really excited about this important step in our lives. We set a price range, but unfortunately all the houses we are loving are at the top of our price range, but still affordable for us. We don't want a mortage we are going to kill ourselves every month to make. We can still find an amazing house for not much more then we are renting. Last night looking at houses with our realtor proved successful and we found two houses we LOVE, and are going to put offers in on them tonight. When we actually get a house I will post pictures and all that, but I dont want to get my hopes up about any particular house. The first one we saw is seriously my dream home and everything I have ever wanted...BUT...it doesn't mean we will get it. Nick and I figured that we will get in the house we are ment to be in..right?
Anyway...wish me luck in this already crazy process...!

I SHOUT OUT!

I just have to give a shout out to my in-laws. I love my husbands family. I have always been welcomed with open arms. They have shown me love from the begining! They are amazing, because they all live down here in Salt Lake, but they give us our distance. They are there when we need them. I truly enjoy spending time with them. I am almost to the point where I feel just as comfortable around them as I do my own family. We had a family Christmas party over at his grandma's house, and I loved every minute of it. There family is warm and open. They always are concerned about what is going on in your life. I couldn't ask to be married into a better family! I know the reason why my husband is so amazing, because he comes from such an amazing family. .........
SHOUT OUT TO THE REMY'S! I LOVE YOU!

I need to BLOG more

Like I mentioned before in my previous post I have been struggling lately with being depressed and want to try now focus on the positive. I am starting to see a therapist. YES..a therapist!
We talked about a problem I have and that is I think TO much, and have to much time to do this. We talked about ways I could keep my brain occupied with good things rather then letting it steer into the negative side. Of coarse get a hobby came up..ha ha! I think I have let go of some things I truly enjoy doing. I think it's important to keep our brains active. I have compiled a list for you all that I am going to be working on for the new year: GO ME for having new years resolutions done early..ha. They are actually not New Years resolutions but anyway..ha..here is the list:
1. I love to write and express my feelings. So with that said I will be blogging alot more. I am not the most amazing writer on the planet, I can't spell worth a darn, and my grammer may be bad but I LOVE it!
2. I also love to read, and I have not read to many books since I got married. Oh I love to snuggle up and read a good book. Nothing helps my brain escape more.
3. Focus on becoming closer with friends or family members I have neglected. I get to wrapped up and into myself that I don't stop to think of this. I have made it a goal to re-connect with one friend or family member a week.I have been blessed with so many people in my life that I have many that I need to bring back into my life.
4.Try a new hobby. Ok I have always wanted to make jewelry for a while now. I know starting out may be an expense but by darn this is something I have wanted to try for a while. When all the holiday spending goes away I will invest some money to start myself up on this.
5.Exercise more..of coarse that is a given. For those of you who don't know I was in very wonderful shape for my wedding and I worked out regulary for year and was very dedicated. I then got married and let it all slip away gaining 30 pounds, hence the drepression. Well, that's over now and pulling myself out. On a side note you can follow me on my fitness journy at nickandbeccaremyfitness.blogspot.com (I will post it on my blog roll).
6.I have wanted to for as long as I can remember make a quilt. Who knows why or even how to start but I am sure I could hit up some craft store. I probably need a sewing machine, but maybe my mom has a spare one...mom?? do ya?? or anyone??
7.Bake and cook more. I do this alot anyway, but I want to try out healthier recipes. I modify alot of recipes to make them healthier, but I want to try out new ingredients and get more creative. I will be posting them on my fitness blog, so if you want to copy them, they will be on there.
8.Be a better wife. Think more and do more for my wonderful husband.
9.Start playing the piano again. This is something I have been wanting to do for a long time. Anyone want to donate a piano to me???
10. Be a better family member SPEND more time on keeping in touch with family. DID You hear that family? SO don't get sick of me if I text you more or call you!!!

Alright, that's a good start. WOW..I feel better already....

Nick and I are so excited to come home to Idaho for Christmas. Unfortunately I don't get out of school until the 23rd. That's right...ARE YOU SERIOUS? My students are starting to lose all sense of work ethic. One kid today was bouncing in his seat for an hour like tiger and he would not calm down. Oh man..going to be a long three days next week.

Well signing off for now. I am going to o funeral for one of my former students. So sad! He was a cute kid! His personality was off the charts. He will be greatly missed!

What I am Thankful for

I don't even know who reads this blog anymore. Maybe no one, but that's ok! I like blogging sometimes because it'a way to express your feelings. I have been struggling alot lately. Struggling with my job, and my feelings about life. I guess I am having a mid-life crisis. I am 31 mind you! :-)
I decided instead of wallow in my misery and make this a negative post, I would put a different spin on it.
Since its the Holiday season, I would post what I am thankful for and what in my life is a light and bright spot.
1.I am so very greatful for my wonderful husband that was brought into my life. He is my saviour in life. He puts up with so much from and always with a gentle spirit and heart. He my friends is one in a million. I guess I shouldn't brag about how wonderful my husband is, but I can't help it. He cheers me up when I am sad, and lifts me up when I am down. He comforts and kisses my forehead when I am crying, he listens to me when I need to rant. He is my best friend in the whole world. We still spend every spare minute we have together. I feel at home with him, and I know he is my soul mate. Him alone would give me a reason to get out of the dark cloud I am in.
2.I am so very greatful for my mom and dad. I could write the same things about them that i have my husband. When I wasn't married, and even though I am married I feel like they are some of my main cheer leaders in life. They have saved me in so many ways over the years financially and mentally. Without them, I wouldn't be where I am at in life. They were like my foot prints in the sand because I haven't lived by them through my adult life, but I always felt they were there with just a phone call away. I can't count how many times I called my mom in tears, and she was the calming voice of comfort I needed. How very greatful I am for them. THey are the perftect exmaple of sticking with family through thick and thin. I only hope I can show my children half of what love they have shown me.
3.I am so very greatful for my sister. My sister and I have not seen eye to eye alot of times over the years. After putting our "differences" aside we truly started to grow as real sisters. We have started being more honest with each other about how we feel, and I feel like I can go to her and vent about anything and she will listen. We are such very different people, but we seem to find common ground. She is a wonderful example of what a true member of the church is. Fos those of you that don't know, I don't go to church and probably never will, BUT she loves me for me, and I admire her for what she believes. She not only believes it, but she lives is. She is no Sunday mormon. It's hard to find people like that, that practice what they preach. My sister is also a wonderful mother. She is a true example to me. If I can only be half the mother she is I will be doing good. Going to her house is very peaceful dispite the drama going around with the children! If I was never able to have kids, I would be happy with being around hers for the rest of my life.I love you!
4.I am greaful for my brother in law Scott. First and foremost I am greatful that he provides a wonderful home for my sister and their kids to live in. I admire his work ethic. He is a hard worker, and he wants the best for his family. He goes after his passions in life, and that is something I need to do more of. I appreciate the respect he has shown me over the years when I have been in his home. He always acts interested in my life, and willing to offer advice when I need it.
5.I am greatful for my beautiful neices. Oh how I love these little girls. Nick and I adore them. Nick is in love with them as much as me! THey are such well behaved little ones. They are so smart and loving. There is no greater feeling then one of them running to give me a hug and a kiss. I love having them around. The sounds of laughter and giggling is music to my ears. They bring light into my life when I am feeling down. I am greatful my sister got married so young and she brought such wonderful kids into my life! I am also excited to meet my new little nephew.
6.I am greatful for my brother. He is such a hard worker. I know he is a phone call away when I have any question about money! We have had some good talks over the years. I know my brother has been through alot in his adult life, but he is strong and willing to work through his problems. He is a good example of working through something and keeping your head high. I hope that our relationship can continue to grow in life.
7.I am greatful for my sister in Law Macie. She puts up with my brother! haha..No kidding, but on a serious note...the woman is alway happy. She is very friendly to every one she meets, putting them at ease. She is always asking questions about my life and concerned with whats going on. She has a happy heart. She respects my brother and his ideas in life, and supports him. She is ONE strong woman. She is willing to tackle problems going on with a head strong attitude. She is a very loyal person to those that are family. She has always shown me love and made me feel important.
Ok, there are many other things that I am greatful for and people and that will be in another post. I listed all my family, but I have not forgotten my in-laws. I am very greatful for them as well. They are wonderful.
This post helped me to reflect on what is good and light in my life. I am in a dark spot in my life right now, and having some depression issues. I want to pull out of it because I have so much to live for!

THE BIG 3-1-Reflections....

SO today I am old. I feel old..but I dont' feel I look 31! I wonder what 31 is supposed to feel like?? I suppose if I had a few kids under my belt I would look more like 31. I feel like I have been a mother for years though..teaching kids can be a mothering experience. Sometimes I feel like I am going to burned out from kids, and will not want to be one.. ha ha! Wow..I am rambling already. Alot of wonderful things have happened this last year. I got married for one. Holy Moly, can I just say what a wonderful husband I have. How in the world did I get along without him??? He completes me in so many ways. I honestly would be content if we couldn't have kids for some reason. He is my better half. I feel like we melt into each other. From the moment we started dating we have been inseperable..bad spelling..but you get what I mean! I think our friends hate us because we seriously want to spend every spare minute with each others. The weekends are spent doing everything together. We have our little routine and love it. We are not exciting people, but we get excited to be together. I never thought I would ever have such a wonderful relationship. He is just a great guy. He is respectful and loving, and just a good person. It's hard to find someone who doesn't have alterior motives in life, and he really doesn't. His love for me is pure, and un-judgemental. I can be so difficult sometimes, and he handles me in a perfect way. Ok...my shout out to him is over, but I could go on and on.......BOY do I Love that man!!
I really can't think of any other huge event that has happened in the last year. I have learned alot about myself and am ready to move forward into my 31st year! I have a feeling it will be the best year yet. I look forward to all the exciting adventures that are coming!!!
Happy Birthday to me...ha ha!!!!

NO longer Private............SO EVERYONE READ!!

I don't know why I put my blog on private. There was no reason. I think I did it by accident, and then forgot to change it back. I guess a few people still read my blog. I need to be updating this blog more often. I really do enjoy blogging to be honest. I love to read blogs. So you need to leave me a message if you actually read my blog. I wonder how many do!
On an update.............
So Nick and I have some exciting news......









...........I am pregnant........................





HA HA...ok just kidding. OH wow scared myself writing that one. On that note..no we are not ready to have kids just yet! My news is exciting to me because I feel like it's a step into something I want eventually. Nick and I have the opportunity to rent a very beautiful house for just a little more then we are paying for our one bedroom rat hole! I know, I know..you think rent, but we may end up buying it in a year. It just depends on our financial situation. It's just great we can actually live in a three bedroom house with vaulted ceilings, a deck, two car garage, and in a nice neighborhood! We would buy right now, but I married a practical man. He has zero debt, and just paid off his car. I have all the debt, and he really wants to pay mine all off before we get a house. He also has medical bankrupcy on his credit for another year and a half. The man almost died when he was 21 from pneumonia. He was in the hospital for over a month hooked up to almost every machine possible. In the end he has over 130,000 to pay off in medical bills. He decided to file for medical bankrupcy. It is a ding on his credit, but he is so good at managing money. ANYWAY.............that's the story! I will post pictures when we move in. I guess it's exciting to me because I have never lived in a house. It will feel more like a family. The people we are renting it from just redid the kitchen and two bathrooms and put in new carpet.
Also, going to Vegas this weekend! Kind of spur of the moment trip, but we decided we need to get out of town!!!
I promise to update more only if all the readers leave me a message...:-)

Need to VENT...rough weekend..and it continues!

So, if you want something uplifting..stop reading! ha. I just need to vent! I am so upset because I was dead SICK all weekend along with my cute husband. I had to miss hanging out with my family on Saturday because I was to ill to get out of bed. Oh yea, I did get out of bed to drag my butt to the shower, and also to eat..only a little though. I was emotional for missing time with my family. NOT a good day. Then on Sunday I was still under the weather..along with that, I got another bad gall bladder attack. Not bad enough mind you to go to hospital, but it was border line, and did cross my mind. It seriously lasted over 12 hours. I couldn't sleep very good. On Monday, I went into the Doctor, and they said I have developed more stones, so getting it removed would be the best decision. Surgery FREAKS me out! Along with that doctor visit, I went to the foot doctor as well. I have been getting a bunion on my right foot, and it's taken a toll on my walking. It's not bad enough for surgery, but it's no picnic sometimes. I get alot of inflamation in there. I got a shot on top of my foot full of anti-biotics. WOW..never thought I could feel such a pain in my foot. That hurt like the dickens..and I am still walking around like a gimp. I thought it was supposed to make me feel better??? Well not so much right now. Today I have to a take a half day off of school to go meet with a surgeon to see if I can take this gall bladder out of me. PLEASE Get rid of it! Well, that's enough bad posting for now. On a lighter note, I get thursday and friday off of school for fall break! YEA....!! I promise the next post will be better.........
I just had to vent!

THIS IS FOR MY SIS!

Ok Chris so you better read this because I think you are the only one that reads my blog! I wish I had some pictures to update you with but I am at school on my lap top and i don't have any..maybe i do! Things are going decent. Nick and I are so back into a routine. I hate routine sometimes. Summer was filled with fun trips, wedding, and honey moon. I mean no..nothing! Wow, I guess my attitude seems bad. I think it's more like BLAH...ha ha. I am sure everyone can relate to the routine of life.It's crazy sitting here..my mind is totally blank. I guess here is my time to thanks my lucky stars. I should list what I am thankful far..Maybe it will get my juices going in the writing department.
1.I am thankful for my job..I complain all the time, but at least I have one that pays decent and gives me good benefits. Career change? Maybe..but for now thankful.
2.I am sooooo thankful for my marriage and my wonderful husband. Really, it's so rediculous how amazing he is. I think ok, can I even find something wrong with you? I really can't. We are such best friends, and he supports me in my weak moments, and I hope he feels like I support him. He accepts me for who I am and who I can be. Goodness I love that man.
3.I am so thankful for such a wonderful family. I love that our relationship gets better and better. SHout out to SIS and MOM especially. I love that we can be more honest and real with each other. I LOVE LOVE my neices. They are so amazing. They are beautiful and so special in every way. They are straight from heaven.
4.I am thankful for my car. Without that I would have to walk everywhere, and be out in the weather. I know it's really not the most important thing in life to have a car, but I am thankful.
5.I am thankful for friends. I have honestly been a BAD friend lately. I miss so many of my friends. I think, oh man I need to get in touch again with this person and that person. They honestly are in my thoughts all the time, but I don't really act on it.That is one of my goals right now to get back in touch with friends. WHY oh WHY don't I do it? Maybe because I am lazy..or just thoughtless..I don't know. To my friends, I love you and I know you are out there.

Alright that's enough of that..lol..ha ha. I will list more later. If any exciting news comes, I will blog it!

More Updates to COME..promise..BUT....

I introduce you to my new favorite item. I finally have my own snuggie! Have you seen the comercials?? They are on all the time. Well my sweet husband brought it home for me. I have been wanting one forever, because I get so cold in the winter, and he thought they looked stupid, BUT he caved and got me one. I also made him feel even more like a man when he tried in on for a picture. I think he looks like a monk..lol. Well, I will be back to bloggin more. I promise to update on all the summer activities!

It ABOUT time for an update here!!

Alright let me start at June 9th, 2009. This is the night before my wedding mind you. I was sound asleep dreaming about my perfect wedding day. At two AM, I was woken up out of a dead sleep with some major pains in my upper stomach. I thought ok maybe I was just nervous about the wedding or I had some sort of indigestion. I don't know. I woke Nick up..YES we were together the night before we got married..SUE ME! I was wandering about my apartment grabbing my stomach just crying. It hurt so bad. I thought ok, just try and go back to sleep. Well that was a bomb! I text my brother in law, and thankfully he answered. He said the pain doesn't sound normal, so I should go to the ER. UM..wow...this is not good for sleep the night before my weddding. Being the stubborn woman I am, I still thought it was just a bad tummy ache, so I made Nick take me to Walgreens and get some antacid. I was following him around the store cluching my stomach in agony. I had never felt this pain before in my life. Finally Nick talked me into going to the ER. SOOO...long story short, after seeing the doc, getting a sonogram, I find out I had gall stones, and it was a major attach. So, we got out of the hospital at about 7:30 AM. That means I got a good three hours before the attach. I went home and slept for like an hour and half, then had to get up to wash my hair, since I had a hair apointment soon!
I really tried to hold it together..but I was freaking out inside. I felt soo out of it and tired on my own wedding. Those of you who know me best understand that getting married was the world to me, and of all days of my life why the heck did that have to happen on my wedding. It was a freak situation. I was in pain alot of the day still, and avioded taking any pills because I hate pain pills!
The wedding was amazing. I was completely in a zone, and so tired and in pain. I really tried my hardest to pull it together and put on a happy face. I was so happy that day but torn by what had happened. Nothing went wrong at the wedding and reception. It was sooo perfect in every way.
I don't have my own pictures yet but check out the photographers websight if you are that curious about it
www.moniquephotography.com (then click on view your pictures at the top left, and find weddings, then click on Nick and Becca.)
Anyway, we had a glorious day, and I will write more. I have to jet on a bike ride for now. Also next post will include a few honey moon pictures!
I just want to thank everyone who made the effort to come and support me. I was so happy to have most of my close friends and family. It was a beautiful event in my life!

Day Before and Sample of Bridals..

SO....it's seven in the morning, and I can't sleep any more. It's the day before my wedding. I am getting to excited. It's sooo unreal. I love how I feel! I got my bridals done just yesterday and my photographer already sent me some pictures...so here are a few. I LOVE THEM!!!

Friday..Friday..Friday..Friday...

So, today is my last day of school! Yea for me...eh?? Its an exciting time to be had. I am now going to be full into wedding mode. I am super excited. I am VERY anxious to get to that big day. It's sooo unreal!!