I don't even know who reads this blog anymore. Maybe no one, but that's ok! I like blogging sometimes because it'a way to express your feelings. I have been struggling alot lately. Struggling with my job, and my feelings about life. I guess I am having a mid-life crisis. I am 31 mind you! :-)
I decided instead of wallow in my misery and make this a negative post, I would put a different spin on it.
Since its the Holiday season, I would post what I am thankful for and what in my life is a light and bright spot.
1.I am so very greatful for my wonderful husband that was brought into my life. He is my saviour in life. He puts up with so much from and always with a gentle spirit and heart. He my friends is one in a million. I guess I shouldn't brag about how wonderful my husband is, but I can't help it. He cheers me up when I am sad, and lifts me up when I am down. He comforts and kisses my forehead when I am crying, he listens to me when I need to rant. He is my best friend in the whole world. We still spend every spare minute we have together. I feel at home with him, and I know he is my soul mate. Him alone would give me a reason to get out of the dark cloud I am in.
2.I am so very greatful for my mom and dad. I could write the same things about them that i have my husband. When I wasn't married, and even though I am married I feel like they are some of my main cheer leaders in life. They have saved me in so many ways over the years financially and mentally. Without them, I wouldn't be where I am at in life. They were like my foot prints in the sand because I haven't lived by them through my adult life, but I always felt they were there with just a phone call away. I can't count how many times I called my mom in tears, and she was the calming voice of comfort I needed. How very greatful I am for them. THey are the perftect exmaple of sticking with family through thick and thin. I only hope I can show my children half of what love they have shown me.
3.I am so very greatful for my sister. My sister and I have not seen eye to eye alot of times over the years. After putting our "differences" aside we truly started to grow as real sisters. We have started being more honest with each other about how we feel, and I feel like I can go to her and vent about anything and she will listen. We are such very different people, but we seem to find common ground. She is a wonderful example of what a true member of the church is. Fos those of you that don't know, I don't go to church and probably never will, BUT she loves me for me, and I admire her for what she believes. She not only believes it, but she lives is. She is no Sunday mormon. It's hard to find people like that, that practice what they preach. My sister is also a wonderful mother. She is a true example to me. If I can only be half the mother she is I will be doing good. Going to her house is very peaceful dispite the drama going around with the children! If I was never able to have kids, I would be happy with being around hers for the rest of my life.I love you!
4.I am greaful for my brother in law Scott. First and foremost I am greatful that he provides a wonderful home for my sister and their kids to live in. I admire his work ethic. He is a hard worker, and he wants the best for his family. He goes after his passions in life, and that is something I need to do more of. I appreciate the respect he has shown me over the years when I have been in his home. He always acts interested in my life, and willing to offer advice when I need it.
5.I am greatful for my beautiful neices. Oh how I love these little girls. Nick and I adore them. Nick is in love with them as much as me! THey are such well behaved little ones. They are so smart and loving. There is no greater feeling then one of them running to give me a hug and a kiss. I love having them around. The sounds of laughter and giggling is music to my ears. They bring light into my life when I am feeling down. I am greatful my sister got married so young and she brought such wonderful kids into my life! I am also excited to meet my new little nephew.
6.I am greatful for my brother. He is such a hard worker. I know he is a phone call away when I have any question about money! We have had some good talks over the years. I know my brother has been through alot in his adult life, but he is strong and willing to work through his problems. He is a good example of working through something and keeping your head high. I hope that our relationship can continue to grow in life.
7.I am greatful for my sister in Law Macie. She puts up with my brother! haha..No kidding, but on a serious note...the woman is alway happy. She is very friendly to every one she meets, putting them at ease. She is always asking questions about my life and concerned with whats going on. She has a happy heart. She respects my brother and his ideas in life, and supports him. She is ONE strong woman. She is willing to tackle problems going on with a head strong attitude. She is a very loyal person to those that are family. She has always shown me love and made me feel important.
Ok, there are many other things that I am greatful for and people and that will be in another post. I listed all my family, but I have not forgotten my in-laws. I am very greatful for them as well. They are wonderful.
This post helped me to reflect on what is good and light in my life. I am in a dark spot in my life right now, and having some depression issues. I want to pull out of it because I have so much to live for!
